Time is like a river
that will take you forward
into encounters with reality that will require you to make decisions.
You can't stop the movement down this river,
and you can't avoid the encounters.
You can only approach these encounters in the best way possible.
I began to think, long ago, which of the things I did, the places I visited and the persons I met would have truly important meaning for my life. It is in later days that I am beginning to understand that one thing becomes important not because it is meaningful by itself, but because you consider it to be meaningful, just as in the case of the unique rose in The Little Prince.
2018 is the sixth year that I have spent at CNOOD. Looking back on the past, what glisten in my memory are the times when I worked as hard as I could, the place which carried my dreams, and people who endeavored side by side with me.
A Sunflower in Full Bloom
It was my first time to follow an order in March 2013, after I had been working at CNOOD as an intern for more than two months. It was 12:00 at the Hairun Warehouse, they said that I was like a sunflower.
It was in November 2014, at Tianjin Port.
Standing on the shore and looking at the sun setting under the cranes, I suddenly felt that it was an image full of industrial force.
It is a weird rule that women are not allowed to go aboard a cargo ship. It would be happy even to be a pirate, I thought, if I could enjoy such scenery every day!
On the first day of the coming 2015, Jing’an Temple, against the darkness of the sky, was like a lighthouse in my eyes.
A battle that we cannot lose
In August 2016, I dripped with sweat in the workshop with a temperature of above 40 degree Celsius. It was for the team’s goal that I tried to tolerate something that was hard to bear. Meanwhile, I fulfilled my inner calling. Seeing off the last truck, the flying dust in the darkness of night was the most beautiful scene to me.
In November 2017, my baby girl Yoyo came to this world. Clenching her little fist, she seemed to say to me, "Come on, Mom!"
The First Year as a Working Mom
In March 2018, I became a fresh working mom. I was inspired by my daughter to ever move ahead!
I believe that evolution is the greatest single force in the universe.
I believe that the desire to evolve, i.e., to get better, is probably humanity's most pervasive driving force.
Personally, I believe that personal evolution is both the greatest accomplishment and the greatest reward.
The six years at CNOOD has so far doubtlessly been the most golden years in my life. It was a choice I made after I had a relatively mature understanding of the world as well as of myself. Moreover, it was a critical period when I transformed myself from a college student to a senior at workplace.
Every person I met, every occasion I experienced, and every project I took part in during the six years have all been added up together, bit by bit, to form my understanding of the industry, the society, and my goals and dream. The corporate culture and style of CNOOD has long become an intrinsic part of me.
In 2018, the shift of roles in my life made me think more, get rid of stereotyped perspective, review myself from a broader horizon, make a summary of the past days, and chart a blueprint for my future growth.
I used to think that the industrial experiences accumulated was the most important asset for me during the six years. With the changing of viewpoint, however, I have begun to notice that a growth-oriented way of thinking is the most valuable treasure I have got during my six years of growth at CNOOD.
During the first three years, I was like a fast-operating machine, too busy to have a stop for thinking. At that time I was feeling good, and was embracing new challenges and overcoming difficulties every day. I was not obsessed with the result of effort, because everything was new in my eyes. I would even enjoy the falling if I dropped into a pit.
In the fourth year, my state of mind had a subtle change even before I noticed it. That was a change of expectation based on the enhanced self-positioning. I no longer enjoy the feeling of failure so much, and would be greatly agonized by fruitless effort. Being defeated after an exhausting spurt is just like being defeated by an equal opponent in a go game, which could in some cases be remembered for ten years. It was then that the influence of the CNOOD culture on my subconsciousness began to show itself, while I was unaware of it.
After two more years of testing, I am now at the threshold of the seventh year. I am confident enough to surpass my old self, and at the same time have a clearer understanding of the force that has helped me succeed in achieving this.
"Follow the heart, and be your best self" is more than a slogan; it’s an attitude toward life. CNOOD is a company that put this idea into action. From product upgrading to the shift of business model, it does not stick to the old way, does not stop and look, does not become timid, nor set any limitations. The powerful innate driving force is CNOOD’s core competitiveness in continuously being ever stronger. Pushed forward by this trend, the evolutionary force has put an end to my old viewpoint of what is success and what is failure. It has enabled me to finally understand the world and my position in it from a broader perspective, while having a different expectation for my future development.
I am more confident in facing the various restrictions in life. I am beginning to believe that the new role of “mom”is not necessarily something negative to my career, nor will it be a stumbling block in fulfilling my dream.
And my dream is no longer limited to a specific objective. I want to remove the restrictions in my subconsciousness and become a better, stronger person. Chances and luck are like the weather, and I am determined to go forward through storms.
February 15, 2019
李天竹 Echo Lee
Echo Lee received her M. Econ. from Fudan University and joined CNOOD after graduation. At CNOOD she started a period of passionate, exciting years. She is fond of philosophy and likes thinking about life. After becoming a mom, infant care now becomes the thing she loves most. She enjoys her shifting roles at work and home.
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